push on

20140714-113638-41798850.jpgOur ideas of what we want our lives to look like tomorrow or years from now are visions. As we aim for the finish line we accomplish things one after the other and suddenly, without warning, we hit a bump. As we fall it sets us back a step. This obstacle is used as fuel to restart the fire. Failure is not an option.

NOTE TO SELF: Find that inspiration, push on!

invisible circle

20140718-231652-83812082.jpgI pretend an invisible circle is surrounding me. It catches little pieces of my life that help me stay pure and they remain there until only I decide it’s time for them to go. Some stay forever. Some for just a moment. As I hold on tight, I realize it is the happy things that are keeping that invisible circle connected.

the cycle of chronic pain

20140713-192215-69735093.jpgCHRONIC PAIN has a life force all of its own.


I am in CHRONIC PAIN and cannot sleep which leads to weariness the next day. That weariness then leads to irritability, despair and more CHRONIC PAIN which compounds my sleep problem leading to more irritability, frustration and anger. This beast becomes a dominant force when it is left to feed on its own resources. It then grows, festers and becomes more unmanageable.

This is the cycle of CHRONIC PAIN,


floating, serenity

Imagine the most calm, serene and tranquil environment. An environment perfect for relaxation. A meditative setting free from noise and distraction, allowing your mind to slow down, unplug and focus on what’s important while achieving a deep relaxation.

Our bodies escape the stresses and strains of gravity that weigh us down as we effortlessly float. Floating causes the release of the bodies natural pain killers which block the transmission of pain signals at the level of nerve cells. Pain relief associated with floating allows chronic pain sufferers to break the cycle of pain enabling improved health.

Many business around the world utilize flotation tanks however, there is not one near where I live. With the right mindset I can perform almost the same flotation experience in my jacuzzi bathtub achieving a deep relaxation which literally breaks my cycle of pain.

loving ourselves, taking care of ourselves, putting ourselves first

We are so caught up on everything going on in our lives, we tend to leave the most important thing in the dust: Ourselves.

We have to take care of ourselves. We have to make ourselves a priority. Putting ourselves first is one of the most selfless things we can do. When we put the effort into keeping ourselves healthy and happy; to constantly strive to be the most positive version of ourselves, we will be radiating with the most beautiful energy imaginable. That energy will be put into everything we touch, everywhere we go, every person we encounter.

Let me share what I have done. My longing to walk in the water in a pool at the gym? I’ve purchased a membership, I’m walking in water and I’m loving it. That juicer I’ve always wanted? I’m buying it. Learning yoga? I’ve taught myself yoga and do it at home where I feel most comfortable.That constant chronic pain I feel? I’ve researched and continue to research everything there is to know about it. I’ve put myself on a detox plan. I’ve learned to eat the natural fruits of the earth. I’m clearing out those toxins that have been accumulating within me forever, fogging my mind and slowing me down. I’ve learned to eat for fuel, not for taste. I’ve made a personal meditation space. I’m in awe at what my body can do for me. I wake up and hug my knees. I thank my hands. I walk as if my feet were kissing the ground. I pray.

intangible moments

Acceptance of chronic pain is hard for me – it is also hard for my family and those around me. I think everyone close to me were use to thinking of me a certain way and when I presented a change they didn’t expect or understand, many resisted. Chronic pain is intangible and many find things they cannot see hard to believe.

I’ve tried everything. I’ve tried everything but lighting myself on fire, and some days that definitely seems like a good option. Despite never finding the magic bullet, I’m glad I tried everything I did. It gives me a sense of peace with my limitations – I know they really are limitations, not just things I didn’t try hard enough to overcome.

Even with pain as a factor in my life, there are things that make it better and things that make it worse. It has certainly been a learning process. Throughout my entire life I’ve always pushed myself hard. I had to learn what would get me into a bad situation. I had to learn to listen to my body.

I also had to learn to let go: Let go of my previous expectations of myself, let go of meeting other’s expectations. The same part of the brain that processes physical pain processes loneliness, which means that isolating myself made my experience of pain worse, yet isolation is where I am most comfortable.

When physical pain is an every moment experience, noticing the good things in my life is what has kept me sane. I had become impatient with my habit of pausing to notice a beautiful sky or the sounds of nature. I saw myself as pollyannaish, not facing reality. Now I understand that when daily life is a struggle a beautiful sight helps sustain me.

The little things in life, moments, have taken on more meaning in my life.

every family needs an Aunt Frannie

My heart is taking our family’s recent loss extremely hard. An unexpected illness in the beginning and then a huge blow that her time left on earth was going to be very short. Death has a weight of finality. When someone you love dies, one gets the feeling that the world should stop – take a solemn moment – remember the one who has walked this earth and touched our lives.

Her death has reminded me that we never know how much time we have with someone we love, that we should cherish that time and make the most of it while always, always showing our love for that person. Her death is a reminder of how much we should celebrate life, love every person around us and love ourselves. Let her be each of our inspirations not only for today but for the rest of our lives.

As we each waited for the call of her demise memories flooded each of us. She was a great role model - I’ll always remember her for her energy and for being such a good person. It is rare that in our lifetime we would know someone with a heart full of love such as hers. Our family will certainly miss the love she gave to each of us. She was vivacious with a permanent twinkle in her eyes.

She was the epitome of a hilarious commentator with narrative skills that were simply beyond hysterical. She’d have us dissolve in uncontrollable laughter at every family get together. She had a wonderful sense of humor and always, always made us laugh while putting smiles on the faces of everyone she met.

I’m happy to know she has been reunited with other family members in heaven. She has left a beautiful legacy for our family. She will be missed, but as we each know we will see her again which brings great solace as we mourn her death. She is now exploring the endless abundance of heaven.

Her death is proof that when it is said that the best people are often taken from us too soon that this is an adage worthy of its timelessness. So, even though she is no longer with us, I continue to try to focus on the symbolism of that fact, which is that she was by far one of the most beautiful people in my life and that is how I will always remember her.

Aunt Fran a/k/a Frannie, I will always love you!



Being bitter doesn’t make me less sick nor does it change the behavior of others towards me when people don’t respond the way I feel they should about my life living in chronic pain.

Acceptance was the key. Once I accepted that everyone in my life maybe didn’t understand, or for whatever reason might not care or they just don’t want to get involved, an unexpected turn in my life was taken, I found peace within.

Putting bitterness aside felt good. Acceptance and grace is that calm and balanced state of mind that rides life’s disappointments.

I understand and accept my health condition and that is the only thing that matters.

be where I am

20140609-124919-46159420.jpgThere are times in my life when I look back on moments of pure happiness and wish I could still be in that moment. It’s important to me to really be in those moments when they happen, fully appreciating their beauty and happiness. As moments can be fleeting (I know all too well living in chronic pain), I tend to make sure I never miss a minute!

a cure to the touch

20140609-124956-46196732.jpgBeyond the immediate calming and tranquilizing effect water has once it washes over our skin, it also increases our immune system function, improving circulation while naturally boosting our skin’s hydration levels.

Water is a boundless reservoir of health containing mineral salts, vitamins, amino acids and tiny living microorganisms which secrete balancing hormonal substances that are easily absorbed by our bodies.

Let your mind take you there as you flow with water’s massaging benefits.

living in the present

I have always been an anxious person but never made the connection between being anxious and my mind always living in the future. I tend to worry about what’s going to happen down the road or the consequences associated therewith resulting in always forgetting to simply enjoy the moment. I’ve learned to let go of the past after a lot of work, something that believe me didn’t happen overnight. As I experience the feeling of joy and peace about the future, I become fully immersed in the present moment. I’m making a conscious effort not to worry about the future while fully embracing the here and now.



The connection between reality, existence, knowledge, values, reason, mind and language known as the philosophy of life has always intrigued me. I question everything and always want to know the why and how. Not only does it broaden my mind and fuel my thoughts, it opens up a new window for me.

Look for the extra in the ordinary. Go beyond the norm where a whole new world will appear. Open your imagination, never just look. Feel, touch, explore and ask, be curious and feel alive!

water dehydration

When the body doesn’t have enough water, cells begin to dry up and wrinkle, causing joint and muscle problems. Low back pain is a sign of water shortage in the spinal column and discs.

The brain translates irritation of nerve endings into pain signals. Drinking fresh, pure vast amounts of water detoxes the body preventing needless suffering and illness.

Water intake corrects the basic pain-producing drought and saves the body from further danger.

As a former soda only drinker, all I can say is . . . “If I had only known!”

Energy Flows


“Energy flows where intention goes.” – James Redfield

Have you ever thought about where your energy goes? Or where you’re putting most of your energy into? By focusing on all of what we wish to accomplish, all of our energy is directed towards enabling us to achieve our vision. Good intentions and attitudes will influence the positive to surpass the negative. The only thing it takes . . . happy thoughts!

Eight Letters, Two Words


I have been with my son when he has been in uniform when a complete stranger would approach him and say “Thank you,” “Thank you for keeping us safe” or “Thank you for your service.” Of course, as one very proud Mom, I would smile as he would humbly respond in return.

I now realize the significance of a simple thank you to those who have served or are currently serving our country. A simple thank you could mean,

  • Thank you for upholding the high standards and moral values that we the public have placed upon you.
  • Thank you for putting yourself in harm’s way to allow us the freedoms and liberties we have come to enjoy and love.
  • Thank you for saving lives.
  • Thank you for dedicating your life to defend our nation.
  • Thank you for your sacrifice.

These men and women were and are proud to serve their country and protect our nation. Thank you!

the energy of sunshine

One of my most favorite things in existence is sunshine. I love when it wakes me up in the morning and the energy and happiness it brings whenever it appears through the clouds. Most of all, I love the shadows and patterns it creates by shining down at all different angles causing it to be the essence of eloquence. Sunlight is a personal reminder to always appreciate the beauty that surrounds me. It not only inspires me, it takes my breath away.

I believed I could

photo“She believed she could so she did.” -Unknown

I never looked back. Often scared and often with a sense of unfamiliarity. “Stay Positive”  I said to myself. There are times it will be hard to keep going, but nothing is going to get in my way. My self doubt is silenced as I continue on this journey. I ignore all obstacles, pushing them aside as each one confronts me, leaving me with a straight shot to keep fighting. I believe nothing other than what I want to believe. I’m making it!


My feelings may not always be logical, but they are always valid. It’s not something I can ignore or wish away. It’s there gnawing at me, tugging at my core and in order to find peace I have to give myself permission to feel whatever it is I feel.

The point is, when I decided to make suffering my triumph and when chronic pain refused to let go of me I succumbed to it. I embraced it. I was triumphant. I remain free.



We each have a unique eye. Perspective is all about life’s beauty and is alluring because it contributes to the uniqueness of every person. That very uniqueness makes our world an interesting place to be. Altering our perspective even just slightly can open up a whole new world of possibilities.


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